2012 was not that bad a year for me. It didn't fulfill all my silvery dreams. But it was not bad either. I have seen some rough ones so all in all I sailed along just fine in this one. It was not so for several other women out there. And what do I have to thank for that? The sheer dumb randomness of my birth and the unseeable rightness of being at the place I was at when something dark and damning happened somewhere else. Oh yes like every year I have learnt, grown, wilted, made merry and cried with hopelessness that nothing good will ever come of my existence. I have wiped those tears and gone to places I never thought I ever would. I have realised that who I was has evolved but some parts have only matured to be only more refined. I felt no nostalgia when I left behind my school and schoolmates. I felt none this past year as I left behind my graduation class. As always I am proud of my wisdom which I had even at 15-16. The ones you are friends with always keep in touch be it over days, weeks or months, over land or sea or a different locality. I don't quite comprehend my own tone in this post. Maybe it is cynicism mixed with a bit of dark humour. Well all of us are not shiny and sparkly. But hey, I make merry!
Some photographs I took recently
I have already bid farewell to 2012
I promise to remain painted this coming year. I promise to continue drinking, wearing hemlines that don't reach my knees (oh woe me!). I promise I won't let you say my right to revolt is in shambles and get away with it. I promise you our eyes are on all you sexists, misogynists, chauvinists. I promise not to be anti-men even when you are being anti-women. I promise to try to educate you. I promise to provoke you to do away with your mental myopia. I promise the cause of women is not going to be the only cause I devote my time to. I promise to try to teach you I am not a cardboard character you have "painted and dented" in your mind for ages to suit your version of who I should be so that you do not feel powerless. Some victims die, some survive, I promise I will fight for and alongside them all. I promise I will fight for a better society till the day all my bones turn to ashes.